The Maiden and the Unicorn

its lupus

tin-tin as what we call her. she was  my classmate when i was in college. a simple, generous, kind, always wear big smile whenever she saw her friends and classmate. thats how i describe her..
 who knows she already acquire the desease.
          It was diagnose as lupus few months after our graduation. I was the first to know it, through text.. she inform me that her physician told them that she has a lupus..
          she was far from before, when we were still in college.  she made-up herself as our laughing stuff....
               BUT NOW......
    a lot of her personality was changed..., the face that always in a smile like jollibee was now a picture of sorrow, no trace of happiness.. she's now a kind of moody, irritable and very sensitive....
         puffy face, like kokey... hehehehh.... violet complexion.......

         her doctor always monitor her cbc and u/a.. and give her   lifetime medicine, the steroids called prednisone. and lots of vitamins plus milk..
            until we find out that she already pregnant at about 12 wks. age of gestation.. I  was shock. coz, her doctor told her before that if she will concieve  perhaps she or her baby oar both of them are at risk..
               until she deliver her baby avia  cesarian section due to her     high blood pressure..  and thanks GOD both of them are okey now......

               LUPUS ias a chronic  autoimmune diasorder mark by flare-ups and remissions. one of the most serious rheumatic disease/. it is difficult to diagnose.  generally coming long after the first symptoms arise. and after the complaints dismisses as psychosomatic.

            LUPUS also may be temporarily misdiagnosed as rheumatoid arthritis a, skin disease, kidney disease, mononucleosis, epilepsy, mental illness and others...
    LUPUS occurs n 1 in 70 women between the ages aa15 to  64

love hurts?

people are people, as love hurt itself...

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the tears pour like a heavy rain that soon flow like a river going to the ocean of sorrow.
but why someone cant move on? and someone move it easily? why is it someone commit suicide in the name of love?
was it painful?  difficult to accept the reality that both creatures don't belong to each other?
            well, as for me, it is very hard to accept the fact that the relationship you've been shaping was out f nowhere. just like what Ive experience.....
          I thought he's the one but not...  I dn'nt want to cry . I told myself that he's just a waste of my time.........
        but as i consult myself and my heart, I felt life ,Iwant to cry, and I burst into crying.. I said he was damd, fool, bitch and all the bad words i could utter.. but what  can i do? he's with someone else.  in the arms of other woman whom he love most....
 HOW SAD........ my heart aching, my head spinning, I dont know what to do... no one can unferstand my feelings, no one even my friends.....
       I could still remember my professor when she discuss the pericardium.  it is the tissue that enclose our heart..
      I felt my pericardium  infested by what we call love bacteria that cause my pericardium to swell mand got infected... huhuhuhuhu  heavy heart....

our own

• we are what we are... we cannot arbitrarily excised the bad, as it is not existed....